Monday, August 25, 2008

A Dead End

Draining my mind out,
I sit here alone,
Wondering and thinking,
What went wrong?
I don’t know why,
Neither do I know how,
But it seems to me
There’s no hope left now.
I’m sick and tired
Of wearing this mask
And pretending to be
Happy from above,
When deep inside
My heart is aching
And is in a livid state.
They think I’m not bothered
But they don’t know that
I’ve been crying out hoarse silently.
I wish I could set things right
I wish I could just know once
Where did I go wrong?
Maybe I can correct it then.
But I can’t do it on my own,
I’ve tried my best
And now I’ve come to a dead end
There’s no turning back now
Because it’s all over and out
I can sit here and sulk
Or I can break the barrier and move on.
It’s very hard to accept it,
But I know relinquishing is the best way.
There’s not a tiny ray of hope left
So why am I still here?
Why am I still bothering?
Nobody has any answers.
I just wish I could understand
These complications of life
But I’m withered away
Seems the road has come to cease,
And the wall can’t be broken,
Because on the other side,
There’s absolutely nothing at all.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Just For ........ (?)

Here's a romantic poem I had written few days back, for no particular reason.
It isn't very great though, I feel I'd be able to write a better one the day I actually write it for that someone special.. :-)

I don't know why,
but the very thought of you always makes me smile,
As I remember holding your hand in mine,
and those beautiful memories flash by,
I realize that you've really made my life.

The sun doesn't shine for me if you're not there,
the moon hides behind the clouds without you,
you're the cradle which's holding my every breath,
you're the only one that makes me feel alive.

Till now, I've kept on running without any aim,
but since I found you, it has never been the same.
Life finally seems to be peaceful and serene,
and I would never want it to change.

I can never let you go now,
I promise I'm gonna hold onto you forever,
no matter what may come in our way,
together we'll always stay.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

A Lonely Road

Wandering around on the roads,
I was lonely and insecure,
Trying to fathom the human desires,
Which have entrapped the mind's sapphire.

I stopped and looked around,
Hoping to see another lost soul about,
To share my thoughts about life,
And drown in the grievances alive.

But it was dark all around,
An eerie silence had possessed the place,
And it seemed that miles and miles about,
No living creature could've been found.

I walked ahead towards the gate,
In search of a world far away,
I'd dwelled enough on this lonely road,
It was time to break the bonds & fly away.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Cycle of LOVE

We met
By that lonely corner,
Where lives had come to a standstill;
It was hard
To move a step forward
And moving backwards was not a choice.

We felt at ease with each other,
Reliving our pasts
In the form of words;
Hearts felt lighter, minds at peace
And Holding hands,
We moved towards sunrise.

We had the most amazing times ever,
It felt like
We were always meant to be together;
Inseparable was probably an understatement,
We were like
One soul in two bodies.

And then came the drift,
Which was bound to happen
Sooner or later;
Differences started to arise
And with time,
The wall came down between us.

I tried my best to set things right,
But then I realized
That it was never meant to be;
And now I stand again
At that same lonely corner,
Hoping that next time things will be different.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Uncanny But True

Let me know if this story doesn't make sense to you... :-)
But there's a deep insight to it which should make sense to atleast a few.

It’d been a long day. I don’t know how I had got myself in such a precarious situation. Reflecting upon the trauma which I’d gone through in those tenacious hours, I realized that things could have been worse. In those wee hours of morning, things had somehow taken the right track, but only for a while. It seemed that we’d reached the perfect solution but there would have been many hurdles which would have had to be crossed if we’d chosen that path, because the future seemed quite bleak. And that little ray of hope just vanished into thin air.

So we’d to make a choice, a choice between the good and the bad, a choice between life and death and a choice which could’ve changed the entire course of our so-called plans for a better tomorrow.

Life never gives you all the time you need. At one point or the other, you’ve to decide whether you’re going to act upon what you’ve thought about or waiver from your principles and let destiny take its toll on you. The acceptable standards of doing things may not always be the right ones and sometimes having the courage to do things differently makes the entire difference required.

But that was where the conflict came, because not everyone thought like I did. Raging on like bulls, we fought over trivial issues which at times, made absolutely no sense. Everyone had their own opinion to handle the matter at hand and everyone thought that their solution was the best. It was hard to reach a consensus in such a situation. The circumstances demanded a compromise which no one was willing to make. No one was ready to think in that direction, which I knew would give us the ultimate answer for all our queries. The situation was getting out of hand. If I hadn’t taken that drastic step at that moment, then god knows what not could have happened further. Maybe we all would have met the same fate as the raging bulls meet in the field of war. It’d have been a total massacre. But finishing off one life to save many others was the only option left at that moment. It was gruesome but I couldn’t help it. I had no other choice left.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

The Next Chapter

As one chapter of life draws to an end,
The time has come for a new beginning,
to launch myself into a higher strata,
where things would not be the same.

I have analyzed all the options available,
through all angles and dimensions possible,
and I've realized there're constraints everywhere,
which're curbing my wings to fly.

It's starting to seem like there's a bend
in almost every road I want to walk,
But then the long journey so far
hasn't been so direct either.

I don't regret the choices I made,
Because I never knew how they'd turn out,
Its best now to forget and forgive,
and move on into the summoning light.

Life at times is like a kaleidoscope,
beckoning me to blend with the colors,
but the path has been decided beforehand,
I'm just allowing destiny to guide me through.